Showing posts with label Consciousness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Consciousness. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

I Killed a Lizard and Transcended Today's Fast Paced Times


The other day I was happily troding along  on my Blue Bullet Love Machine, smiling bright, enjoying the breeze, swerving, swaying and then suddenly I saw right in front of me the most beautiful creature moving at a snails pace.  He was large, scaly and in his final moments, he looked up at me.  My body and mind did not react fast enough in the few milliseconds I had to swerve my monster of progress out of the way in order for the multi-colored amphibian to happily trot about his days, and then it was over.  The lizard left squashed on the road and me, left pondering this fast-paced world.  WHY. Why are we constantly moving faster and what we we rushing to do.  As if the notion of infinite time and space has done nothing for the collective consciousness.  Here we are, creating faster cars, faster trains, faster planes, we are building faster, talking faster, thinking faster, worrying faster, killing ourselves faster and we truly have no reason why, it is just what everyone is doing.  It is the status quo to feel like your life is moving as fast as possible toward the end.  Hmmm.  I cannot say that I don't enjoy the pleasures of a fast paced world, high speed internet, tons of connectivity, a fast bike, the ability to travel anywhere and create high quality products in the blink of an eye.  But from this experience I have had to take a look in and see where all of that desire and progression is getting ME, US, the WORLD.  well, I have to say NO PLACE FAST.  

About 2 years ago I spent almost 30 days walking through the himalayan mountains in Nepal.  During that time I have never felt so completely alive, ever.  my steps were harmonious to the rhythms of the earth, I was greeted by the trees, smiled at by the plants and from the insects to the animals there was a revery for one another.  We were all enjoying nature and all of creation together.  Yes, my food would be cooked for me in makeshift houses and served up on a plate and the animals and insects had to work a bit harder (I am not sure of that really as they do not have the mental aspect of lack so they are just naturally driven to seek out food) anyways, even in those make shift houses I was treated like family.  My days were full, complete and my connection deep.  And, it got me into a mindset of the Walking Man.  There is such complete joy in taking it slow, observing the little things and being able to stop OFTEN and smell the flowers.  I had lost a bit of that when I decided to actively pursue my music offering, but this simple interaction with the Lizard brought it all back.  So, here I am again, adopting a way of life into my mind to see how it works.  I am going to live in the paradigm of the walking man.  I harmony with the earth in all my steps gracefully lighting up the day.  Yeah, the probably does not mean that I am going to give up my fast-paced modes of transportation and the life of a man traveling all over the world, but it does mean that I will tread lightly and have the awareness, slow-down my breath to that of a walking man, take deep breaths and stopping often to smell the flowers and someday when I am ready, I will probably spend many of  my days walking.  I already have a plan actually. 

As for the lizard, well, I am sure his service to my mind has transcended him to altered states of reality.  His next incarnation might just so be an enlightened master, as he/she just enlightened me.  Grateful!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

PUNCTURED!!!


Over the past 3 years while traveling abroad, I have had the great opportunity to let go of a few long time fears, including fear of spiders, heights and getting run off of a mountain road. But there is one fear that decided to tag along for the longer ride. Well on August 11th, after years, including deep into childhood, one of my biggest came to fruition….I was finally stung by a SCORPION!! Yes, it hurt like hell, actually stepped right on it, something I thought was never possible. Earlier in the day my partner actually told me that she saw one, a statement that I told her could have been left from my consciousness, but, even with that said, that same night, a scorpion stuck its little prick into the bottom of my foot, now, i must say, the Fear has lessened a great deal, so, I am grateful for that….but, they still creep me out!!! What to do…..

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I LOVE YOU!!


That is all I have to say....you know those urges that bubble up and want to just embrace the whole world in a blanket of love....I just had one of those moments and I have to say...I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!


Blessings from the Ganges in Rishikesh

Sunday, October 4, 2009

One in the Rain

Most days I find more water coming out of me then going in, even with an 4 Litre Intake! My guitar strings are dead almost instantly after the time that I change them. Food dies on the way to my mouth. It is hot, sticky and in the Masala filled air, there is a sense of suffocation that persists in your day to day in Mumbai. But, then, like a angelic lover's kiss, the soft caress of Rain gently nudges the temperature to perfection of human condition and we continue on our day, wet and soggy but grateful that the great grandmother nature is still sweet enough to bless Great Mother India with her sweet nectar of cool Rain. I could just spend days walking in it...Wouldn't that be amazing if we could spend our lives naked in the cool rains of change, only lusting after a kiss of the sky, walking by and by catching eyes but focusing our energy on the healing up high, watching peacefully as we ascend farther and farther away from the great lie of "I" ....

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Just Felt Like Writing Something

Through the business of these days, the constant day to day meandering through this material existence, playing the game of life in a fluid and highly charged manner, I can only share words of complete gratitude! I know I spend a lot of time in positive portrayal of life and I know that there are possibly many people out there that would just like to slap the shit out of me and say, STOP BEING SO F***KING POSITIVE. OK, but why. Yeah my mind goes through the turmoil of existence on a daily basis, pondering insane thoughts of unrest and doubt, but, why I SAY, why speak on them. Words are as powerful as worlds and are the creators of our reality, so, I speak what I wish to see in my life, I share when my heart is open and I like to speak out from that place. There isn't space for self-loathing anymore, although it will always be somewhere tucked in our consciousness, but, again, I ask why, why speak on it. Because it help you to say hmmmmmm, possibly, but I will spit some lyrics at you from the song "HIGH" - Now watch what you say because the plants they play in the words echoing in the breeze - with a healthy mind and a healthy speech WE CAN POWER THE WORLD TO PEACE!! -

I look around a lot lately at this little game of life that 7 billion of us are playing on this planet, and, honestly, I cannot help but laugh when I come upon the realization that I play the game as a being whom acts as a guide to bring others to see this all as a game, and the game that I play has endless work for hundreds of years!! Oh, what a fun choice I have made....Such gratitude to walk hand and hand with the people that are making a difference in a time and space that really does not exist and even if it does, is such a small part of the infinite universe that is inside of each and every one of us. We are so powerful, yet we use our minds to disempower ourselves daily, WHY!!

Imagine a life where you are aware of the inevitable end, the "so-called" death, and each and every day you live in a reflection of the LIFE that is here now, and are completely expressive in each and every moment of it.

Imagine a life in which you whole-heartedly go after the things that are of your greatest imagination.
Imagine a life in which fear takes a back seat to love.
Imagine a life in which you manifest each and every little thing that you have ever wanted in your existence.
Imagine a life in which you are healthy and vibrant and feel like you are getting younger as the years pile on.
Imagine a life in which you are one with god, not God's servant or separate.
Imagine a life in which you are disciplined enough to love and respect YOURSELF and your integrity!
Imagine a life in which you wake up every day in complete gratitude and awe of EVERYTHING!
Start THIS MOMENT and make this your reality! It is a choice, believe me.

Lately I have been using various techniques that aid in my taking a conscious decision to completely alter the conditioning that has kept me down for so many years. After 30 years of waking up wanting to punch a small child, I now can wake with a sense of peace and calm, thinking thoughts of endless possibilities and gratitude for the many blessings I have in that moment. I see the people around me blossoming and creating their bliss daily!! oh boy, what a blessing it all is.......at this point, there is only one more thing I have to say, I AM IN LOVE WITH ME and MY LIFE and that makes my relationship with each and every entity on earth radiate from that space!! So, when I say I LOVE YOU, I can only say it because....I LOVE ME SO MUCH.

Our imagination is our reality when acted upon.....

Thursday, August 13, 2009

VERY IMPORTANT - PLEASE READ!!


**WARNING** B9 Virus (also known as the "benign" virus) epidemic is causing massive outbreaks of peace. B9 is very contagious, especially among young children and the elderly. The most common means of transmission are hugs in excess of 20 seconds in length, and peace symptoms are also suspected of coming from long walks on ocean beaches or in deep mountain forests. Individual symptoms include difficulty in dominating other people, willingness to listen for long periods without interrupting, and forgetting to lock the house, as well as spontaneous outbursts of joyful singing and tears of gratitude. An epidemic may be indicated by improved learning in schools, shortages of workers, empty jails, and closure of military recruiting offices. Government epidemiologists say control is impossible, since the B9 virus will disassemble the DNA of fear media-cations with laughter. The prognosis is for long-term chronic peace to dissolve political and national boundaries, blend the races into one soft brown color, and marginalize the use of currency as a representation of value. The B9 virus is very dangerous to the status quo and should be treated with respect.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Always One To Remember

A young man, a student in one of the universities, was one day taking a walk with a professor, who was commonly called the students' friend for his kindness to those who waited on his instructions.

As they went along, they saw lying in the path a pair of old shoes, which were supposed to belong to a poor man who was working in a field close by, and who had nearly finished his day's work . . .

Student turned to the professor, saying: "Let us play the man a trick:

We will hide his shoes, and hide ourselves behind those bushes, and wait to see his perplexity when he cannot find them ..."

"My young friend," answered the professor, "We should never amuse ourselves at the expense of the poor . . . But you are rich, and may give yourself a much greater pleasure by means of this poor man.

Put a coin in each shoe, and then we will hide ourselves and watch how this affects him." Visit: The student did so and they both placed themselves behind the bushes close by. The poor man soon finished his work, and came across the field to the path where he had left his coat and shoes . . .


While putting on his coat he slipped his foot into one of his shoes, but feeling something hard, he stooped down to feel what it was, and found the coin. Astonishment and wonder were seen upon his countenance.


He gazed upon the coin, turned it around and looked at it again and again.


He then looked around him on all sides, but no person was to be seen. He now put the money into his pocket, and proceeded to put on the other shoe; but his surprise was doubled on finding the other coin . . .


His feelings overcame him . . . He fell upon his knees, looked up to heaven and uttered aloud a fervent thanksgiving in which he spoke of his wife, sick and helpless, and his children without bread, whom this timely bounty, from some unknown hand, would save from perishing . . .


The student stood there deeply affected, and his eyes filled with tears.

"Now," said the professor, are you not much better pleased than if you had played your intended trick?"

The youth replied, "You have taught me a lesson which I will never forget. .. I feel now the truth of these words, which I never understood before: "It's more blessed to give than to receive."

Something that I wrote about love on the Chameleon Tour - 2005


I was going over the Full Moon Rising Chameleon Tour Experience the other day and found these gems of wisdom....thought to share!!

LOVE IS ETERNAL, LOVE IS INFINITE, IT HAS NO BOUNDRIES, IT HAS NO LABELS AND IS A FEELING OF LIGHTNESS AND UNDERSTANDING BETWEEN PEOPLE/THINGS, NOT HEAVINESS, NEED OR ANY OTHER NEGATIVE EMOTION. I NEVER WOULD HAVE IMAGINED A LIFE OF LOVE LIKE THIS..

I LOVE A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD, BUT ONLY IN THE TRUE ESSENCE OF LOVING MYSELF HAVE I FOUND THAT THE WORD LOVE MEANS:


FREEDOM


SO WHEN YOU THINK YOU ARE “FALLING IN LOVE” REDIRECT THAT THOUGHT TO: I AM INFINITELY UNSCATHED BY FEAR AND NEGATIVITY AND OPEN TO EXPERIENCE THE LIGHT OF HUMAN CONNECTIVITY, FOR THOSE WORDS CAN MAKE ANYONE FEEL LIKE THEY ARE FALLING.


A BROKEN HEART IS A BROKEN PERSON IN NEED OF SELF REALIZATION THAT WAS NOT IN LOVE, BUT WAS EVERYTHING ELSE BUT “IN LOVE”


TRUST ME, IT IS EASIER TO FEAR, IT IS WHAT WE DO, BUT GO LOOK UP THE WORD LOVE, FOR IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH FEAR.









and what I wrote few weeks later:

JEOLOUSY, ENVY, SELF-DEPRIVATION, LOSS OF SELF, PUTTING WEIGHT ON MONEY AND FAVORS, JUDGING, HEAVINESS, ANGER, DISRESPECT…



FEAR


Please do not let that word enter into any relationship in your life, ever, it will only cause you and those around you harm that there is no need to have…I think this upcoming lesson is the biggest one of the whole tour…I am actually writing this on the other end of the lesson, almost 2 weeks later…this is a good one…but please just remember the most important word in life and do not forget it…

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LOVE�

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

The Green Sacred Mandala of Empowerment


While connecting with fellow healers in the deserts of Mitzpe Ramon, Israel, something profound come into my being as a message!! While lightly gazing at the turning sky, watching the decent of many stars and the rise of others, My eyes became fixed on an image that appeared in the night sky. The image was familiar, being that I have spent lots of time engaged in sacred geometry and crop circle sightings. It was a Mandala, one in which I did not recognize, but for certain a sacred circle. While my eyes opened to the phenomenon, an energy burst into my heart unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. The energy busted open my heart, echoed throughout my body and shook the whole entire earth with a power and strength that was so massive, I could not help but loose a breath and follow it up with a deep massive breath of empowerment. This energy, was an energy I have never felt in my life. Strong, pure, unwavering waves of Strength, beyond anything that can be manifested in the material world. At that point, it was clear and will be clear for me for the rest of this lifetime, Humanity is waking up and that awakening is bringing such strength and empowerment, that the fears and doubts about our existence are all following away into a subtle "I don't know, but I will live Holistically!!!" It was a power In which I can imagine human beings from all walks of life standing on the top of their roofs, open hearted with a huge smile on the face shouting brave, "I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT IN THIS LIFE, LIVE ANY WAY THAT I WANT, ACHIEVE ANYTHING THAT I WANT, CREATE ANYTHING THAT I WANT, AND I WILL DO IT FEARLESSLY WITH MY HEART OPEN AND FULL OF LOVE!!! WE ARE THE ONES WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR and THE TIME IS NOW!!!!!

We are much more powerful then we are taught to believe.....in this message I received I am clear that each and every one of us can live to our highest potential!!

THE TIME IS NOW!!!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Rising in Love - hmmmmmm

This is one topic that I have been talking about for a long time. Falling and Rising in love. IN my mind I associated falling as a negative as well and it takes a great seer like this to spin the wheels of the mind like this and assure me there is no Absolute way to see things. The "I Don't Know" it the best way to see it, non-ignorant, but like a child.......enjoy!!

One Swami was giving a lecture. “ Don’t fall in love , rise in love .”

And everyone clapped. At that moment, in that context, even I did. It made sense for that moment, and the point Swamiji wanted to make, was made.

What people don’t realize is that words can be twisted and manipulated to get across your point of view.
In the above case, falling in love gets a negative connotation. But actually that is not the case. It is , on the contrary, positive . It can be compared to falling asleep or falling into meditation . Are they negative ? No. All it indicates is that it just happened w/o any effort on your part. In fact, in such cases, effort itself is a barrier. If you put effort in trying to sleep, you won’t get sleep.

And how did this phrase originate ?
Believe it or not, from the gravitational force of the earth. How ?
Objects fall freely, w/o any effort, due to the gravitational pull of the earth. So falling in love , or falling asleep indicates that there was no effort exerted by you. In fact you were not in control at all. The laws of nature were at work.
The ‘falling’ that Swamiji was actually referring to , in a negative way, was ‘falling down’.

I hope you got my point of view.
Or did I twist the words and manipulate you ?

I LOVE THAT LAST LINE. the mind, manipulation.....can it be done in an i don't know state...hmmmm

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Israeli Pedestrians - OUT OF THE FLOW!


So, I am not much in for the Compare and Contrast in LIfe but I had to make a small mention on this one. The last few days I have been on the bike roaming around through the streets and ways, going here and there and everywhere, noticing a very simple fact. When I would bike,walk, motorcycle down the street in India, the people would intuitively pick a direction and move in that direction, never having the slightest hesitation on the direction they choose, thus allowing a natural flow of movement to happen in the passing. Here, In Israel, in almost every instance, I find the person in front of me making a hesitation or multiple decisions and actually working against the flow of the passing, and, in most cases I end up having to stop as they walk directly into the path that I chose even before they started wobbling back and forth. Just a funny little observation that I enjoyed. Probably a difference in mindset and confidence. In India, decisions happen instantly with little o no hesitation, coming from the space of the heart. In Western Cultures, even the smallest decisions are pondered over and over again!! FUN TIMES.

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Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Talking to my Inner Child


I am holding you and let you know all the things that scare you are real and far from real all at the same time.

I am staring deeply into your eyes and penetrate you with love so that your fears of not being accepted fall away in the breeze.

You are Free, no matter what your mind tells you!!

There is a reason for the way that you are, it is Love!!

Cry with me, I know it hurts to be a man!

If you step out of yourself, you will feel joy beyond your imagination.

I forgive you.

You do nothing wrong

I forgive you.

You are lovely the way you are.

I forgive you!

Please kick and scream and call me names.

I forgive you!

For the way you judge......yourself!

I forgive you!

For the painful walls put around...

I forgive you!

You are my inner child, loud, incessant, ignorant and enlightened, pure and simple, crippling and expanding, you are always here and sometimes I will need to hold you and let you know that we are OK and other times I will follow you and expand into your nature of infinity.

We can do this together always, Man and Child!!

Much love and Gratitude to Satya Rayes for the inspiration......

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Jerusalem Mask


Overlooking the rolling structured hills of Jerusalem brings instant fantasy into the mind.  David, Daniel, JESUS....did they walk this land?  When I close my eyes and open them again, I am almost 2000 years back in time.  Something is in this City.  Is it the world's endless obsession with the Bible that has given this place such a powerful presence?  It is like I am wrapped in some dream of some fantasy world of names and places that I thought only existed in text and in the minds of the religious fanatics, and now, I am here!!  Bethalahem: what!!!!??  This is an actual place?  Guess so!


On our way to the Old City of Jerusalem, I got to see first hand what has happened in this country in the means of separation.  An enormous wall has been built all around the Palastinian sectors of Israel, somehow attempting to erradicate the struggle between the two.  I say if you want to irradicate the struggle of fighting people, a rediculous notion all together, then put them in a big area TOGETHER and then put a wall around them.  let them fight it out if they wish or let them survive together as that is all they are trying to do anyways.  The walls make the country look like a war - zone, yet, again, all I am seeing is people smiling and enjoying their time on the planet...even the soldiers!!!!  Freedom is all I feel here, although the people whom I was with loved talking about the past wars that did go on over these roads.


On to the Old City, or, Revamped Old City.  Everything was brand new!!  New buildings, new shops, tons of things to buy.  Expensive food.  The only thing that remained in the Old City that was really OLD, was the mindset of having 4 different Quarters Separating the Religions.  THAT is old school.  I guess these people still haven't learned that My God is chilling with your GOD and they are laughing at us trying to retain the values of the OLD.  The city is gorgeous, full of power and Jerusalem Stone....OH Jerusalem Stone!!  I just love it.  


On a funny note.  I was not aloud to bring my guitar to the Wailing Wall or inside the Tomb of Jesus, but, smoking was aloud in and outside of these areas.  I did manage to get the guitar inside and do some singing of "What are we fighting For!"  And then an intense man in a black cloak aggressively stopped me!!   Fun Times!  I have also been told that you can pay to carry a cross on your back and walk the supposed "Jesus Walk!"  MY GOD!!!  HE must be smiling a the mere thought of it.  What a funny world we live in.  I look forward to a return visit in the near future.  I think I have just scratched the surface here now.....more to come!!!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Brave New World Working On It's Own


Well, it was about 3 weeks ago that I came to Mumbai simply to record acoustic versions of the tracks of the upcoming album, Brave New World - The Time is Now!! Well since that recording, that was done on the 10th of January, the music has been attracting situations and people to it that are far beyond my doing!! I have just told the universe that I am ready and to do it's work. My intention is to take this music to the world, for the world is in need of more music that can bring people into the light of consiousness. So, staying out of the way, I just show up everyday and allow this great universal flow to do what it must in order to achieve that mission. Well, things are happening and they are happening fast. In the last two weeks, we have met with producers of one of India's greatest empowerment and conscious life festivals, we have met with over a dozen musicians whom are interested in being part of the project and, greatest of all, Full Moon Rising will be performing at one of India's premier live music venues while also discussing touring, management and marketing for this upcoming album. All this and more and, really, it has all come in effortlessly, as we are constantly rooted in the realization that we are not the doers in this whole scenario. I know that I am ready to play this album on the rooftop of the world, but only the universe will create the circumstances, and that it is. All of these meetings were either by chance, or simply taking the opportunity as it came to us. And, best of all, the venue and booking came by the grace of one of the greatest Guru's....The LOVE MACHINE....my motorcycle. I simply asked a random guy on the street whom owned the same type of bike if he knew where a mechanic was that could fix her up. Well, it just so happened that this simple man did all the marketing and promotion for one of Mumbai's premier live music venues. In that whole-hearted loving way that is customary of this culture, he gave me his card just in-case I could not find the shop on my own. His card had a Blue Frog on it!!! My question was answered with this..."Blue Frog is an Live Music Venue for International Artists!!" heheheehheh. I love this flow of life!!!!

And, to top that all off, just yesterday I received a call at 3PM from a great friend Neharika, asking whether or not I would wish to play at her college fest at 630 that day. We had spoke the day before about wanting me to play at her college, but, could I have ever expected it to happen so soon!!!! So, the next thing that I know is that we are arriving to the campus and, literally, as we stepped outside of the rickshaw, I heard the man on the center stage announcing my name to the audience and insisting that the come over and see me play. What was even more amazing is that he announced it three times from the moment I got out of the car until the moment that he was out of audible sound!! So, I arrived in my destination and they had set up a little stage in the middle of the campus square, which was an enormous 10 story building in which every floor looked down into this square!!! Amazing. After a little bit of sounding out and getting ready, I look out and there are more then 300 college students waiting eagerly to completely run me off campus or accept the music and vibration whole heartedly into their being. With ease, the latter became the case. There was an instant disconnect with the whole audience with the speaking out of Brave new World. The amazing thing about the youth in India is they are not afraid to Love Something that speaks to their soul and is well intended, even if their friends do not like it!!! I actually mentioned something about that difference in the West, in which, somebody can really love something and look at their friend next to them and if their friend does not fancy the offering they will change their whole view on it!!! The heart is the guide out here and when music hits them in the heart, they have no choice by to listen sincerely, and they did!! What blessed conditioning.

So, that offering has led to a few more open doors and opportunities, so, on to the next!!!! gratitude and blessings!!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Pull of Materialism - Observing The External Beauty in Mumbai


Ever since I have been back in the great cultural and entertainment hub of India, I have found myself playfully dancing back in the dance of the material world. Lately, I have been drawn to the style of a man's shoes more then the smile on his face, the cut of a man's jeans more then the light in his heart and have been laughing my way through witnessing and realizing this truth all the way until I actually made my first purchase of 3 pair of jeans...of which I constantly wear now!!! I have been enjoying the fruits of skin tight clothes on the women as I admire their feminine figure triggering a spiraling wave of sexual energy that rises to my heart and leaves me in bliss for the entire day. There is so much beauty in the dance of life if we can walk in and out of the binds of materialism. I know, that, in my now decided residency in Mumbai, I will strap on the duds of the latest trend and strut my way down main street catching the curious eye and the jaded heart. In that dance I know that I will stay rooted in the bliss of non-materialism, but, damn, why it is here and while it is in my face, I am going to damn well enjoy it!!!

On another note, Mumbai is full of music performances, art galleries, dance parties and top of the tier restaurants!!! When you do come, plan to spend more then you would anywhere else in India. It is the city of dreams, india style. You also must realize that in this city of dreams, there are around 42 million people and the 2nd largest slum/village in the east. Can you even grasp the dynamism of life in this city. I think that is why I love it so much. From day to day, you are met with enough people and circumstances to fulfill every piece of your souls longing!!! It seems now Mumbai will be my home. I am proud to stay here for as long as it takes!!

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Short Trip Back To The West - Jan. 8th, 2009


On a personal note, 2009 began in a perfect and paradoxical way, as it should. This year of intense growth and expansion, which I foresee it as, started from the very moment that the clock struck the hour of the new year. I was in the middle of GOA surrounded by my dear friends whom I was honored to welcome into India, and I felt nothing but a complete sense of heaviness come over my entire being, and, for the most part, that heaviness has not lifted. I am being challenged to the core inside of intimate relationships, communion with my fellow human beings and energetic exchanges with the people whom are a mirrored reflection of my past limitations. This is where Goa comes in!!

Now, I am not sure if I can blame my behavior, insecurity and unconscious self-banter on a place, but when you surround yourself in the midst of India's Spring Break, obviously and much richer experience then the typical Mexico Spring Break but with a similar energy, you are bound to have some past emotion surface in the process. Day after day, as I meandered through the Western Run state of India, overrun with drugs, alcohol and excessive amounts of indulgence in shopping and food, the so-called growth of my last year in India came to an near immediate crash. I became insensitive, angry, judgemental, and self-destructive. the first conversation of the new year had to do with some Westerners bashing a group of other Westerners because they were partying on the Island in a different way!!! I chose to spend the first 2 hours of 2009 in silence, setting the intention that I would be more careful with the words that would come out of my mouth. Did I keep to this intention, far from it really!!!!

Now I know that indulgence and self-mutalation is what got me to the point in my life that I am right now, but to see, how easily the Western influence can have an effect on my energy and flow was quite suprising and left me weary for my proposed summer return. Have I grown at all??? is this all just an illusion?? Probably......it is!!!

I am still a huge fan of Goa in Monsoon and probably always will be. i found this time in Goa to be quite a disgrace as I watch Western Civililzation take over the entire state, leaving the locals as mere servants to their indulgence. Gladly so, I am sure, as Goa is quite possibly the most expensive place in India. I am sure they make enough money in these three short months to be able to support the rest of the year with their community and people. So, what is 3 months of servitude when you are graces with 9 months of freedom. Small price to pay!!

On a positive note......I must say that it was a great pleasure to welcome my two great friends back into the great motherland. Since I have been in India for the past year and a few months, not one person has come to visit of followed up on their proposed plan to come home, finally, at the very end of 2008, that dream came true and I was able to welcome dear friends into the Great Mother with open arms and an eager smile. What a blessing!!

As I spend the rest of this year trudging through the fear of intimacy, stomping through the muddy waters of self-defeat, and breaking down the barriers that have limited my expansion in the universe, I feel it all a great preparation for the offerings that I have to share. The Time is Now!!!


I am greatful for the deep look into the future as I know much of my work with be in the West!! So, I let it burn, knowing nothing is forever and there is no absolute, only moments in time stepping backwards down a ladder of emotional conditioning, only to be re-instated into the bliss of heart opening!!

Monday, December 29, 2008

January 15th, 2008 - A Full Day!!!

Wow, what an interesting day to say the least. Today was one of those days when you are bombarded with information and blessings and you are so graced with the presence of each moment that you forget that you are alive (In the material sense). I awoke at 6AM to a brisk chill that sunk into my bones. I tried to arise and do a yoga set and was far to cold so I crawled back under the sheets for warmth. 2 and a half hours later I awoke for morning Sadahna. I did a quick but thurough set as I wished to get out and about at a decent time this morning to see some of this town that everyone raves about. First stop was to get my racks welded. After a more than complete 1 hour job of fixing the racks and 70RS later, I was a free roaming man again. The welder had added to reinforcements so that my racks would be going no place. I was grateful.

Next, I just made it for Pongal and Idly at my favorite little local Indian Hotel. I blessed my body with the nourishment and then spent over an hour on skype with my dear friend and soon to be traveling partner Justin. We spoke on our similar struggle with sex intimate relations in our life and how we are dedicated to the path and to harness the awareness and balance in this unbelievably challenging area. He sensed by lack of focus over the past couple weeks and knew that I was in a bit of flux over my recent situation. We shared and shared and shared until it was time to share no more, then we got off the phone, no attachement and no fear.

My relationship with Justin might be one of the most healthy that I have ever experienced in life. We are completely devoted to each other as friends though we know the ever changing state of the world, so we are detached at the same time. Justin could tell me he is going to meet me some where, or call at some time, or any number of things that we humans hold onto as truth, and then not follow through with any of the above. The greatest part about our relations is that we both understand the present moment so well that when he doesn’t show, we instantly realize the highest truth and we move on, without penetrating why’s and how comes. It is quite nice to tell you the truth.

After my netting I scurried by the Hotel quickly to drop off the laptop, grab a few things and get on the road. After around 30 minutes of driving aimlessly, I arrived at a destination in which I actually was looking to reach, The Tribal Research Center. When I pulled up the place was a ghost town and there was a note informing me to come up into the museum as that is where the night guard was located. When I finally reached the top of the hill where the museum grounds were, I noticed there were only a few people inside. I instantly spoke to the guard and he informed me that today was a holiday and the museum was closed. Out of the kindness of his heart, we opened the museum door and, in an Indian sort of way, forced entry into the museum, just for a few eager travelers, now including myself.

The guard informed me of the news and told me to have a look around and join the man from Belgium if I would be so kind. After the Belgium Man’s eyes crossed with mine, I realized that I would not be joining on his journey, he wanted to be left alone, which was OK with me as I felt the same. It is quite comical what I find in the Western Traveler. Everyone, including myself, really does not want to be labeled as a traveler, so I think that when we see each other, we almost cringe at the fact of seeing another one of us. At times, it can be quite comforting to see a familiar face and to see someone that does not stare at you like you just came from Mars. Anyways.

I looked around the museum taking in some of the writings about the different tribes, ingesting some of the pictures from the tribes people and, at many times, standing in disbelief as I learned of the way of their lives. The tribe that I took the most liking to was the advanced civilization of the Toda Tribe. Making their homes in complete coordination with the universe, using the half moon shape with respects to infinity, these were of people of Divine Order. They were vegiterian by intuition and held ceremony after ceremony to bless and honor the land. It was these people that helped the British Expoditionists survive when they found themselves with no food and out of energy on their quest. It was the Toda that took them in, nourished them and got them back out on their journey, only to be rudefully boasted upon and overrun my World Modernism. Today, I would really see the effects of what the English has done to this sacred land in which used to be the homes to countless tribes and indigenous peoples.

Also today, as I found out while talking with the incredibly sincere watch guard, it is Pongal, the Tamil New Year. This was the reason for the museum not keeping it’s regular visiting schedule, but this man was nicae enough to open it for a few interested travelers. The man was so helpful, answering all of the questions we asked and then offering the knowledge that he was willing to share. He informed us of the happenings of the Tamil New Year. First, communities of people would make large amounts of Pongal, an Indian sweet and yummie Yum Yum, not to be confused with the morning delieght that I partake in on a regular basis. With this Pongal, on the first day they would offer it to God and all the deities. After this ceremony, they would offer the Pongal to the neighbors and workers and have an all out celebration. On the second day, the Pongal would be offered to the cattle and livestock. The wonderful animals would be massaged and even painted in respects to the offering in which they bring to the farm daily. On the third day, the Pongal would be offered to the land in which we are all sustained. The celebrations and Holiday will go on for a full five days, actually the next 5 days of my travels and I would definitely see the effect. I really had wondered all day why the streets were so crowded and why it seemed like people were in a joyful celebrated state all day during the middle of the week. This was my answer. For the rest of the day, when I would acknowledge another Indian family or fellow, I would kindly say “Happy Pongal.” This got an great response. Love Love love and gratitude for the knowledge.

After we all walked down from the museum, the Belgium man realized that I was going to town and I offered him a ride. Actually, I was heading for the Botanical Gardens and he was doing the same. So we traveled on. After a few minutes of breaking the ice, I realized that this was a man after my own soul. A man whom has traveled the last 10 years of his life. A man that sees the depth and destruction of the world and sees what we really need to do to be able to change into the new demension. He opened my eyes to the real distruction that was going on all around me. As I was taking appreciation for the neatly combed hills I did not even realize the despicable deforestation that was taking place to make this town look like a doll house town. The English had supposedly come in and ripped the place apart, all so they could really have their morning tea. Tea plantations lined the outer lining of the town, and, while they are pleasing to the eye, they require a whole lot of forest to be destroyed for their making. I started to get a little agitated as I looked around at the perfect, stepping stone hedges of the hillsides and finely stroked manicure of the surrounding scenery. I realized that I am in the middle of a completely deforested modernistic hedonism. I wanted to throw up all over the side of the town as I watch tourist after tourist take in their new found glory in the man made botanical gardens that rest right on top of an anchient Toda Tribe village. Looking around at the people I am realizing that they are becoming brainwashed just as much as any where else in the country and that the young Indian Man is a spitting image of the 90’s playboy vibe that used to float around the young generation when I was growing up. The tight pants, bell bottomed with the flashy butterfly collar and the stylish, Steve Madden shoes. I thought to myself, “what the hell is happening here?” Is the Western World of outer stimulation taking over cultures all over the globe? The disturbing yet true result is YES. I am staying in the light of hope, but my god India, wake up to what is real, your Master.

In only 100 years OOTY has gone from a luschiously expansive forest of green to a finely combed monotony of manmade precision. Spotted in various areas around the English Made establishment are small hints of what the tribal life could have been like some time ago. We even had the blessing of speaking with a Toda man when we walked into the village. He was gentle and sweet and full of sincerity. HE also asked for a donation to the temple after his brief discussion with us. I found it odd but was corrected by Gene when he held that great place of compassion and made me awake to the fact that there is not much left for them to do. Most of the natural resources that sustained the tribes people have vanished in a thick, tea plantation and tourist mess. What a shame!!!!!

We actually had a chance to meet a Toda man that was living at the village at the top of the Botanical Gardens and this was a beautiful yet sad sight to see. He was living there with 22 other families and now that all of the nearby land had been cultivated and made into tourist attractions and tea gardens, he was forced to ask us for money to keep the cummuniy going. In the past, they would have just gotten everything they needed from Mother Earth. Now they are forced to get there goods from the local markets and from the dealers in town. Such a disgrace!!

Anyways, after our excursion we left in hoped of climbing to the highest peak of the town in order to see the sun set. Much to our dismay, they closed the road before sun set. HUH!! Does that make sense. Close the highest peak at the most beautiful time of the day. They probably open after sun rise as well. What can you do. We lived with our dismay and traveled down a dirt road and got lost in conversation and disbelief and arrived upon a rock formation that once looked like a massive waterfall. We climbed to the top and enjoyed the sunset in our own way. We were more engaged in the conversation though so we sort of missed it. I was really enjoying sharing space with this man.

After the climb back down, we enjoyed a Thali together and he talked a bunch about his travels all over the world. He spoke on how the Shamen culture in South America is dying out because they are not willing to teach anyone else but their liniege about the knowledge. Supposedly, there is thousands of years of medicinal healing knowledge they could be shared with the planet, and it is being held in, once again, because of the modernization of the world. All of the new blood and youth in the Shamen world are more interested in going out and partying in the big cities then staying in the forest and being handed some of the most sacred knowledge on earth. Again, what a shame!! Another big part of the shame is now that more and more people from the western culture are taking the step to go within, things like this are happeing more and more. Is it a lack of trust? Is it for the fact that indegineous cultures don’t believe we can handle the knowledge? Or, is it just a simple case of pure ignorance and Ego on their part that they feel like they have to power to withhold the knowledge from the world. The story was shocking as many things were on this day.

Then, Gene went on to tell me that he lived in the middle of a jungle for a couple of years. He took it upon himself to go into the self and to learn the knowledge through the pure intent of his natural environment. He lived so far from civilization that event the locals and the Shamens thought that he was absolutely crazy. He told me of close encounters with Anacondas and other various species from the depths of the jungle and how he became one with all species. I was mystified! What an offering this man’s life was. Our time together was short, but I learned more on this day then I had in a very long time. And….There is more!

When I got home I decided to watch TV for a while, as that is something I have not done the entire time that I was in India. So, luckily, I have the National Geographic Channel. Blessing. For the next 4 hours I watched back to back to back to back episodes of terror and destruction in many levels.

The first being related to people that kill in their sleep. Basically, it was about Sleep Walking Killers. People were claiming that they were asleep when they commited these incredible acts, and, the crazy part, is they are getting away with it. In amazement I watched the stories a story of one young man whom actually drove 20KM, killed his parents in law and then drove 20KM back and claimed he had no recollection of the instance. Another man got drunk with his father in law and in the morning found him beaten and lifeless in the driveway of the house. Another man killed his wife with gloves on, hid the evidence and then went back and drowned her in the pool. OK, now I understand that sleepwalking is real and people can perform many things in the act of sleeping. Also being that I have had some really messed up dreams in my life, I could see that if people could act out their dreams, this could happen. But, what was beyond comprehension was the 20KM drive, the drunk killing, because you don’t even reach a deep enough state of sleep in that state and the covering of the evidence. All are possible, none are believable. Two of the three walked and one is in for life. HUH is all I can say.

The next episode was about how Suicide Bombers are creating a whole new audience by using the internet to sell Muslims on this unfathomable idea. There was one instance in Europe where a random French man was involved in one of these God Forsaken Acts. Scary world we live in. I will try not to think on this one too much, but, what God who loves all of the universe would ever tell anyone to kill for justice. Sounds like these people spend too much time in their own mind created prayer and not enough time in meditation listening to the pray of the universe. Everyone has their place I guess, but it Is hard to grasp many times.

The third episode was about a soldier whom was shot down in the middle of a no fly zone in, I forgot the place, and was a wanted man by the rebels for 6 days. He survived on minimal food, water and tons of fear until he was rescued by troops from home. A remarkable story!!

The last story, was of a man that traveled with a group of people to an island outside the coast of Australia. When the man didn’t show up for the meeting with the group later in the day, the group left to stay on schedule and left him a note. The story went on and they found the mans bones in various places spread out over a large radius in the middle of the jungle. They touched on the various species of highly dangerous spiders, my favorite, and snakes that could have done the job. The final result they contrived was that he was done away with by Dingos, wildly viscsous hunting dogs from the island. The conclusion I came up with was that he was bit by one of these spiders, died after a few hours and then the dogs got a hold of the dead carcass. I could not see one or even a pack of these dogs taking down a large human. Also, near the bones, was one of the holes that the most deadly spider in the world lives in. Anyways, it was a largely sad story and I shouldn’t be talking about it so much, but this was my night and learned a ton on this day.

My conclusion for the day. THE WORLD IS MAD!!! Who didn’t know?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Tis the Season Of The Return of the Sun


Happy Holidays to You my dear friends!! I trust that this message is finding you all in a safe space, surrounded by loved ones and cuddled up in the arms of the Great Divine Love that surrounds us at every moment!!!

Being that I am in India right now and away from the incessant pressure of shopping, family and consumer - driven society, I have been spending a lot more time thinking of the true nature of this blessed Holiday that has been celebrated for centuries and along lineage's of different religious belief systems. With the information that has been streaming in and the people and saints that have been surrounding me, I am finding more strength in my heart when I honor this time as THE RETURN OF THE SUN. Being that we just celebrated the Solstice, three days back, bringing the sun back from it's decent into the darkening of the planet into the Re-Birth and shift to longer days and greater light, I am spending this christmas honoring the One thing in our life that, if taken away, would be the certain end of humanity as we know it. Take away all religions in the world and we will for sure figure it out (God, wouldn't that be a blessing!!) But, take away that bright golden light in the sky that replenishes our sources of survival, and, well, you know the outcome.

By no way am I saying drop your bible, leave the church and see Christmas in a different light (even if I did, would you do it???) I am just saying, maybe we should prioritize our devotion to the things that actually matter most for our survival as a human race!!!

I pray that each and every one of you are giving with the sense of giving, spending inside of your means and most importantly loving those whom are dear to you. If you have spent this profound time of community gathering and honoring stressing your way through societal obligation and man made materialism, maybe next year you can drop the fear of not fitting in (for the whole family) and enjoy your time honoring the great ball of light that happily serves us day in and day out as we spend our time bowing down to beings that walked the earth.....heheheeheehe. Just a thought!!! Truth is never Absolute. Maybe the Bible is right and everything was placed here for man!!! Either way, I can laugh. This game of life we play is completely amusing!!!!

Aside from my mind meandering, I do send you infinite love and joy this holiday season and hold you all dear to my heart. I feel so blessed that all of you are a part of my life (whether you want to be or not...hehhe). I look forward to starting the new year off sharing with you the many offerings That I have been guided towards for the upcoming year.

Bush's New Life


So, I had a fascinating dream the other evening just before I woke up on the Solstice! Being that the new song, "Brave New World," has completely captivated my whole entire soul and sharing it is something I find more important then anything else in my life, the dream was wrapped in the light of the song.

3 Days before the greatest day in American History, I got a chance to go to the Oval Office and share the song with the Great George W. In his mockery of human kind and through the suffering of his mere existence, I was given the opportunity to share this profound song with him. In the middle of the song when I sing, I WANT THE TRUTH, HERE AND NOW!!! AND I WON'T LEAVE UNTIL YOU LET IT OUT!!!!", I grabbed him by the shirt collar and sang the next verse in his eyes. As he sat there cowering in a corner, clinched within a moment of his pitiful life, he began to tear in treachery. As I tightened the grip around his collar I noticed him grabbing for something in his pocket. In my fear of the inevitable, I clinched a little harder until I noticed the shameful man pull out a silver plated Harmonica and wail away with the utmost sincerity and, in those moments of pure musical bliss, the shameless lies and heartless greed was exposed in each and every note. As the cameras focused in and the world listened on, the hearts of the entire globe opened up into pure love and compassion, forgiving him for his acts of cruelty and selfish indulgence.

When I woke, I had just finished asking him to be a part of my new album, he Agreed!!!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

The Sky She Smiled At Me


Was it a taunting
or an honest flaunting
of Divine Peace
There is no unrest
in the galaxies
as it all turns and turns
but yes
We are being watched
This time around
We have been given 10,000 Years
To see if we can survive
the test of mankind

As I looked up and caught the gaze
of ancient civilizations praise
I received a message so clear
Like the ringing of a brass bell at dawn
The Sky She Smiled At Me
So clear, so honestly
Whatever destiny is designed for humanity
Is only a short term prophesy
Soon, we will merge with Our Great Mother Earth
Communicate in Sand
As Only to be washed away.....
Great Distances will be traveled
Free from countless hours of pondering
Half a life spent Pondering
What?

Make a note of her gaze
7 years from now she will smile again
The same smile of today
No matter how much we have gained
Spiritually
She is all-forgiving
all-loving
Giving us chance after chance
after chance after chance
Will she stop?
Why would she?

We are not the only ones in need of entertainment!!!!