Having Fun in the Court Room! Is That Possible? YES IT IS :-)

OK, this is a major turning point in breaking through the fears of the past and bringing enjoyment to something that I had great deal of boredom and negative emotion tied to. Does anyone get excited to go to court? I know I never have, but after today, I am!!!

So, I got a moving violation for actually communicating with a fellow driver, that driver giving me the right of way, me taking it and then getting an “unsafe lane change” ticket. I decided immediately that I will plead “not guilty” and take this to court -:) But a bit of a back story.  

Now, while living in India, Drivers communicate with each other and make moves accordingly, here in Los Angeles, we just follow rules and pray for safety, hence the ludicrous amount of accidents on any given day in LA. When you take human communication out of operating a motor vehicle, what you get it system breakdown.

In my case, I pulled up next to a bus driver that had been stopped for a while. I needed to make a right turn, I looked at the bus driver, we smiled, he waved me on in front of him, I turned happily and then… sirens, and you know the rest.

Now, Yesterday, after dragging the ticket out to court for 8 months, was my court date. In the days leading up to it, I felt a sense of nervousness, as I remember going to court quite a few times when I was young, and it was ALWAYS an impotent and negative experience.  My stomach churned for moments throughout the day when I thought about it. What was it bringing up? Well the childhood sense of “I am bad” “I have done something wrong””I am an outcast””I am not good enough” and on and on and on. 

It wasn’t until about 10 minutes before walking into the courthouse, after a loving hug and smile from my wife, that I decided to let go and have fun, be present and enjoy the process and see what happens (as I am doing with most similar experiences in life now).

This is what happened. 

I arrived to the room to see my past, a large group of other people with the same, 'I have done something wrong complex' whom all hung their heads and failed to look in each others eyes. Not me though, I connected,. I connected with the security downstairs, the people in line, the various beautiful woman ( a must :-) all the way to the bailiff whom greeted us with one of the most beautiful smiles I have ever seen. I told him that! He smiled even brighter. Come to find out, this guy was like a comedian, super funny, sharing about listening and what happens if we fail to listen. His ever expansive smile filled our hearts as we sat and waited for the judge. Then the judge comes out and the comedy of errors begins as he darts from one person to the next with quick comedic wit of a Jester. I am smiling from head to toe, this is amazing, the whole place falls into comedic uproar, and, I feel of sense of community in the room and a great deal of support for each and every character that walks up to the judge to give a plea. Violations from Arguments on Buses, to Storage in Parks, Speeding and tinted windows. Each and every story had a story behind it and I observed the magical play of life that was in this room and the beautiful humans that paused their life to clean the slate. We all had arrived there with a purpose to move forward with something. For most, it was to clear the ticket, but for me, it was to take the next step of the journey and give my simple plea of “Not Guilty” (with a smile). I LOVE LIFE!

Now, I got another 4 months before trial, and oh boy, I cannot wait to see what comes to life in the next court room chronicles.  Stay tuned ….

Thank You Berlin!

Written September 5th, 2011

Berlin ….. Thank You!

Besides all the color, charm, deep history and openness to art.....

Could I have ever imagined that I would take a giant LEAP in my ability to show up as a MAN in this life would be on the streets of Berlin…..well ….. never in a million lifetimes. But it is true. Each day, through the pain and fears of rejection, emotional discomfort and lack of energetic strength I managed to open my heart to the city of Berlin and pour out the greatest gifts possible from my soul. And it paid off, physically, mentally, spiritually and financially. I am different because of this experience. I am more confident, grounded and loving what it is I am to do in this life. My voice has opened up to places I could have never imagined. I relationship has grown (as it always will when there is more SELF-LOVE). I feel alive and funny enough, for the first time in my life, I feel like a provider. I would wake up every morning and breath through the emotional baggage and eventually find myself out in the streets, singing to absolute strangers, most of whom could not understand a word I was saying, and do my best to deliver these songs and messages like it was the first time, every time. Some days, WOW, well, they were excruciating, there was even a couple of times where the pain was so great that I had to just sit and revel in the experience of my insistent separation. I love this city, I am forever grateful for this opportunity to stand up and BE ME in the face of all my fears. Am I now an enlightened saint, quite a way to go really, all I know is that I have taken one giant leap towards my own empowerment which in turn is a huge step for the "Brave New World" project as I always intended to be LIVING these messages.

Thank you again Berlin and everyone whom was a part of this exchange!

Swine Flu Craziness Experienced First Hand

ABOUT 20 MINUTES BEFORE LANDING IN MUMBAI, A MAN COMES ON THE PA IN THE PLANE AND ANNOUNCES THAT THERE WILL BE AN LIQUID SPRAYED IN THE CABIN THAT WILL HAVE A STRONG ODOR....THAT IS ALL HE SAID!!!!! NO QUESTIONS, NO INFORMATION ON WHAT IT WAS, JUST A TOXIC CHEMICAL THAT LEFT ME LIGHT HEADED AND SMILING, AS MY BODY IMMEDIATELY EXITED THE POLLUTED SUBSTANCE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I CAN SAY FOR THE REST OF THE FOLKS IN THE PLANE, BUT THIS WAS SOMETHING THAT CAN NOT BE ACCEPTED AT THIS TIME!!! I WILL JUST SHARE A LITTLE BIT BELOW ON HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS SWINE FLU NONSENSE!!! YOU MAKE YOUR OWN DECISION, BUT PLEASE DONT BE LAZY.....DO YOUR RESEARCH!!

The following is a response to a fear based letter I recieved from members of a spiritual organization that I will not mention at this time......

Please stop spreading the FEAR!!!! I cannot believe that you guys are actually buying into this nonsense. This is all man made nonsense, and, ok, less then 1000 people have died in HOW LONG. That many people die in MUMBAI per day!!!! This so called SWINE FLU is an attempt to control human beings and spread more fear to the world. Please do not subscribe. Do your Research and come up with something beyond what the media is telling you!!!!! WAKE UP!!!! If you have news that can make me actually believe in subscribing to this rediculous fear, that so few people have actually died from, then please share. If not, then make sure you take action in keeping the vaccine away from the all human beings. When the vaccine comes, that is when you will really start to see death....not, that fear should empower. GO ON YOUTUBE and research, TRUTH about Swine Flu, you would be astonished, and, of course, when there is big money involved, why would the media want the truth out there. Anyways, you decide for yourself, but I am sharing with you some things I have found below!!

The Green Sacred Mandala of Empowerment

While connecting with fellow healers in the deserts of Mitzpe Ramon, Israel, something profound come into my being as a message!! While lightly gazing at the turning sky, watching the decent of many stars and the rise of others, My eyes became fixed on an image that appeared in the night sky. The image was familiar, being that I have spent lots of time engaged in sacred geometry and crop circle sightings. It was a Mandala, one in which I did not recognize, but for certain a sacred circle. While my eyes opened to the phenomenon, an energy burst into my heart unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. The energy busted open my heart, echoed throughout my body and shook the whole entire earth with a power and strength that was so massive, I could not help but loose a breath and follow it up with a deep massive breath of empowerment. This energy, was an energy I have never felt in my life. Strong, pure, unwavering waves of Strength, beyond anything that can be manifested in the material world. At that point, it was clear and will be clear for me for the rest of this lifetime, Humanity is waking up and that awakening is bringing such strength and empowerment, that the fears and doubts about our existence are all following away into a subtle "I don't know, but I will live Holistically!!!" It was a power In which I can imagine human beings from all walks of life standing on the top of their roofs, open hearted with a huge smile on the face shouting brave, "I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT IN THIS LIFE, LIVE ANY WAY THAT I WANT, ACHIEVE ANYTHING THAT I WANT, CREATE ANYTHING THAT I WANT, AND I WILL DO IT FEARLESSLY WITH MY HEART OPEN AND FULL OF LOVE!!! WE ARE THE ONES WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR and THE TIME IS NOW!!!!!

We are much more powerful then we are taught to believe.....in this message I received I am clear that each and every one of us can live to our highest potential!!

THE TIME IS NOW!!!