Love you MOM!

66 years ago today was the birth of Janet Lee Pohnke, my beloved mother :) Her open heart and mind gave me ability to explore the depths of my true nature and allowed me to explore what it is that I am here to do. She only suggested ways 

and never pushed me towards her own belief systems on how life should be or what I should do. She loved and nurtured me and those whom were around her. She was always the super cool mom that all my friends adored growing up. She made us laugh and she always made everyone around her loved, respected and just great. It has been 12 years since she left her body, but there has never been a day that I forget about the woman whom inspired me to BE all I can be, to live free and to SEE. Mom, I have taken all the residue of fear that lived in your system and transformed it into love, I have freed myself which i know also frees you. You did great Mom, the ABSOLUTE BEST you could have ever done and I am blessed to see how I can even make it better, you allowed for that higher guidance by not attempting to mold me in anyway. When I have a daughter, I hope you come back as her so I too can give you the gift you gave me and so that you can carry the learning of life beyond me, then I would be happy to come back as your son again (that is if I don't complete the cycles with this incarnation :) Mom, you live in my soul .... and .... one day .... I too .... will be coming home. I love you.

Can Hugging Yourself Empower You?

Recently I have been taking session know as "Master Angel" Peace Work which is facilitated by a dear friend and soul traveler, Andrea Zellermayer.  Her incredibly insightful sessions have taken me to the root of many of the patterns that do not serve me in my life.

One of my favorite things that we have done has been to go back into the past and call in a specific incident in childhood in which I felt the particular pattern that we are working on.  Then, I go into that time and space as the man I am now and give the child guidance on what to do so that he will feel supported and empowered in his self,  a guidance in which I never received at that time and has shaped fear-based patterns in the present.

Well, as empowering as this very act is, today I went a step further at the end of the session and was asked to give myself and my childhood self a great big HUG!  Now I have never before in my life received a hug from myself, so the very notion was confusing and surreal all at the same time.  When I was finally able to focus in enough and do the deed, I, well, In all honesty and from the humblest place I could possibly say this, I was met with the most incredible hug I have ever received in my life!!!  So full of LOVE and COMPASSION, so devoted to the moment.  So, of course, a dose of instant doubt came in I immediately asked myself; Is that really what it feels like to hug me?  YES!!!!!!  YES!!!!  YES!!!! I SAY YYYYYYEEEEEEEESSSSSSSS! 

Fully empowered by this incredible sensation and healing that I felt being hugged by me, I felt the child complete and the Man composed and centered.   I know from this day forth, that feeling will always stay with me.  And now when I am with friends and loved ones, working with underprivileged persons or just meeting someone new and the moment arises to hug, I know very well what kind of love and kindness I am expressing in the gesture and can be fully confident that it can brighten up even the darkest of days!

I am committed to hugging myself on a daily basis now.  I think you should try it too.

Thank you so much Andrea Zellermayer, this session has changed the course of this lifetime!  WOW!

Thank You Berlin!

Written September 5th, 2011

Berlin ….. Thank You!

Besides all the color, charm, deep history and openness to art.....

Could I have ever imagined that I would take a giant LEAP in my ability to show up as a MAN in this life would be on the streets of Berlin…..well ….. never in a million lifetimes. But it is true. Each day, through the pain and fears of rejection, emotional discomfort and lack of energetic strength I managed to open my heart to the city of Berlin and pour out the greatest gifts possible from my soul. And it paid off, physically, mentally, spiritually and financially. I am different because of this experience. I am more confident, grounded and loving what it is I am to do in this life. My voice has opened up to places I could have never imagined. I relationship has grown (as it always will when there is more SELF-LOVE). I feel alive and funny enough, for the first time in my life, I feel like a provider. I would wake up every morning and breath through the emotional baggage and eventually find myself out in the streets, singing to absolute strangers, most of whom could not understand a word I was saying, and do my best to deliver these songs and messages like it was the first time, every time. Some days, WOW, well, they were excruciating, there was even a couple of times where the pain was so great that I had to just sit and revel in the experience of my insistent separation. I love this city, I am forever grateful for this opportunity to stand up and BE ME in the face of all my fears. Am I now an enlightened saint, quite a way to go really, all I know is that I have taken one giant leap towards my own empowerment which in turn is a huge step for the "Brave New World" project as I always intended to be LIVING these messages.

Thank you again Berlin and everyone whom was a part of this exchange!