I live, I love, I share, but most importantly .... I observe the play
Tuesday, July 4, 2017
Freedom is an Inner Game
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A Cure for Daily Mental and Physical Fatigue
Saturday, October 2, 2010
12 Hours Through The Night
Whatever you decide to do, I will let you in on one thing that you must refrain from doing FOR THIS WHOLE LIFETIME. Ready?
REFRAIN FROM DRIVING FROM RISHIKESH TO DELHI IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. I honestly have a difficult time even putting together words to explain this horrific experience that I shared in 2 nights back.
With about 170 Kilos of weight on the bike, we left Rishikesh at around 11pm. Being that the bike had just been repaired and had new parts, we could only max out our speed at 45 KM an hour, about 25 MILES PER HOUR!! And, we had to stop every 40 KM and let the bike cool. WOW! Imagine, every single person in India drives with their HIGH BEAMS on and, there are more bugs and dust in certain areas then a pig farm. So, because of the lights, you have to keep your eyes uncovered because the glare is far too much to handle if you are wearing glasses or a helmet.
Now, much to my surprise, but not really, the roads from Rishikesh to Delhi been destroyed, so, for half of the journey, I was behind the wheels dodging half seen potholes while LORI trucks managed to direct me off the the main road.
After 5 hours of this, I felt we actually were getting somewhere, HALFWAY, of a 225 KM drive in 5 HOURS! That means we were driving, on average, 20 KM an hour or 12 MILES PER HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! INDIA! you gotta love it.
So, on that 5th hour, the bouncing up and down of the numerous potholes had managed to bend and break the rack on the back of the bike. So, We had to pull over, in the most dusty part of the journey, NO LIGHTs, and take all of the baggage off of the bike. Luckily, my partner managed to flag down some passerby's and they, most sweetly, took all of our baggage in their cars and my partner in their car, and left me with the bike and another 6 hour journey, ALONE.
But, I kept on, insisting on arriving to a nice room, with a hot shower to wash off the 4 CM thick dust that had arranged itself all over my body and MORE SO, IN MY EYES!
Also, I went from COLD to HOT, HOT to COLD, and, last thing, let me tell you something about Delhi, when you arrive in DELHI, usually you have about 2 more hours till you reach your destination. I arrived in the Delhi Area at 8:45 AM. I arrived at my hotel at 10:30 AM and I was far from Spiritual. I WAS PISSED OFF!!!
I wonder why I choose to do things when I KNOW the outcome.
I KNOW driving at night is the most dangerous thing to do in India!
I KNOW the road from Rishikesh to Delhi is my LEAST favorite in all of INdia!
I KNOW that the journey will take at least 12 hours due to the bike situation!
But, I still chose to do it. hmmmmmmmmm….I will ponder this a bit more……
4dalove (having a bit of trouble staying there…but….what do do!)
Sunday, August 22, 2010
The Second Time Around - Coming Back to Israel
I think back to over a year ago, I believe it was around the beginning of May, 2009. I could ask my partner as she knows all dates, but we are in Silence right now, so, we will just keep it as the beginning of May. I got off the plane in a country I perceived only through the eyes of the media. I imagined coming into this war torn 3rd world with half exploded buildings and people dying in the street. I imagined daily rituals of caution to battle against the opposing forces. Yet, when I arrived in Israel, I arrived to an modernized Western country filled opportunity to explore and people to love. I immediately went back into the patterns of the old days where I would spin around from place to place - person to person, leaving those closest to me anticipating a return that was unlikely. On that particular occasion, over a year ago, I left the person responsible for bringing me there, My partner. I know it was a necessary happening to break down the past and bring us to a deeper love in which we reside on now, but WOW, i was like a bird on the ocean, flying in the wind, taking a shit wherever I wanted and having no place inside or outside to call solid ground.
But this time around, when we arrived in the beginning of April, 2010, I came with a much different mind set, a clear intention and a solid foundation that was built and supported by my beloved partner and her family. This time my meetings were orientated with work and to those whom which I respected and cared for most. I did not have time to run around and float in the wind. I have work to do, inside and out and I am completely dedicated to that process. In the last 3 and a half months I can rest assure that I have finally reached Manhood. I can carry out business with Top Professionals, work a 14 hour day, dedicated to uplifting humanity and come home and provide the presence and love that my partner needs. Although we have our faults, I feel my relationship has come to a place in which both of us are happily residing in our true essence. She is able to shine in her beauty of femininity as I am able to be the solid oak tree that gives her the freedom. As she feels more safe, her light of love radiates and soars out, holding the necessary space that I must know is present for me to penetrate the world. She holds more space, I work harder and with more people and both of us are happy. I feel like a man, serving the world and her the same, she feels like a woman, nurturing the world and her man the same. Oh what an incredible exploration of relationship. I am grateful that I have never been able to do it in the past. As now, things are expanding at such a level that I find myself in AWE when i sit back and ponder the growth on both ends.
And as for the devotion to the other side, work. Well, I met with some of India's finest while I was there. Had a chance to work with and be produced by one of Israel's best guitarists, Joseph E-Shine from Hadag Nahash. We met with upcoming stars like Shye Ben-Tzur, an artist that we will be exploring our relationship in detail when we arrive back in India. He introduced us to his booking and management people and has paved a road for infinite possibilities in live show production. I performed 2 BIG shows that reached out to more then 1000 people. And, the aimless floating of the past turned into intention filled floating that led us to recording 3+ tracks while we were there.
I am dedicated to this path and show up in every moment in order to give this gift. With that clear intention, everything is literally coming! I have to do much less and LIVE much more. Our weekly videos have a steady view rate of 150 people per week (which I personally would like to be much more) but, we know that these short makings will be most treasured after the major success is achieved. People love to look back and explore the roots. So, the roots are always there now for everyone to find out for themselves, in their time.
One last thing...on the second to last day, I cleared an enormous hurdle by playing in the streets and earning money....was one of my biggest fears and this time, I passed the test gracefully with flying colors. WHAT A GIFT!
So, 3 and a half months of devotion to existence pays off and the album is well under way. NEXT STEP, or I say NEXT CLEAR INTENTION....RAISING THE FINANCIAL ABUNDANCE TO MAKE BRAVE NEW WORLD ENORMOUS....as it should be....

