Sunday, August 22, 2010

The Second Time Around - Coming Back to Israel

I think back to over a year ago, I believe it was around the beginning of May, 2009. I could ask my partner as she knows all dates, but we are in Silence right now, so, we will just keep it as the beginning of May. I got off the plane in a country I perceived only through the eyes of the media. I imagined coming into this war torn 3rd world with half exploded buildings and people dying in the street. I imagined daily rituals of caution to battle against the opposing forces. Yet, when I arrived in Israel, I arrived to an modernized Western country filled opportunity to explore and people to love. I immediately went back into the patterns of the old days where I would spin around from place to place - person to person, leaving those closest to me anticipating a return that was unlikely. On that particular occasion, over a year ago, I left the person responsible for bringing me there, My partner. I know it was a necessary happening to break down the past and bring us to a deeper love in which we reside on now, but WOW, i was like a bird on the ocean, flying in the wind, taking a shit wherever I wanted and having no place inside or outside to call solid ground.

But this time around, when we arrived in the beginning of April, 2010, I came with a much different mind set, a clear intention and a solid foundation that was built and supported by my beloved partner and her family. This time my meetings were orientated with work and to those whom which I respected and cared for most. I did not have time to run around and float in the wind. I have work to do, inside and out and I am completely dedicated to that process. In the last 3 and a half months I can rest assure that I have finally reached Manhood. I can carry out business with Top Professionals, work a 14 hour day, dedicated to uplifting humanity and come home and provide the presence and love that my partner needs. Although we have our faults, I feel my relationship has come to a place in which both of us are happily residing in our true essence. She is able to shine in her beauty of femininity as I am able to be the solid oak tree that gives her the freedom. As she feels more safe, her light of love radiates and soars out, holding the necessary space that I must know is present for me to penetrate the world. She holds more space, I work harder and with more people and both of us are happy. I feel like a man, serving the world and her the same, she feels like a woman, nurturing the world and her man the same. Oh what an incredible exploration of relationship. I am grateful that I have never been able to do it in the past. As now, things are expanding at such a level that I find myself in AWE when i sit back and ponder the growth on both ends.

And as for the devotion to the other side, work. Well, I met with some of India's finest while I was there. Had a chance to work with and be produced by one of Israel's best guitarists, Joseph E-Shine from Hadag Nahash. We met with upcoming stars like Shye Ben-Tzur, an artist that we will be exploring our relationship in detail when we arrive back in India. He introduced us to his booking and management people and has paved a road for infinite possibilities in live show production. I performed 2 BIG shows that reached out to more then 1000 people. And, the aimless floating of the past turned into intention filled floating that led us to recording 3+ tracks while we were there.

I am dedicated to this path and show up in every moment in order to give this gift. With that clear intention, everything is literally coming! I have to do much less and LIVE much more. Our weekly videos have a steady view rate of 150 people per week (which I personally would like to be much more) but, we know that these short makings will be most treasured after the major success is achieved. People love to look back and explore the roots. So, the roots are always there now for everyone to find out for themselves, in their time.

One last thing...on the second to last day, I cleared an enormous hurdle by playing in the streets and earning money....was one of my biggest fears and this time, I passed the test gracefully with flying colors. WHAT A GIFT!

So, 3 and a half months of devotion to existence pays off and the album is well under way. NEXT STEP, or I say NEXT CLEAR INTENTION....RAISING THE FINANCIAL ABUNDANCE TO MAKE BRAVE NEW WORLD it should be....

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