After a quite somber day filled with mind activity and not much action in the guitar case I decided to let go for the last 2 songs. As I have learned after about 20 or more sessions on the street, that when I get out of the way and just let myself relax into the music, people start to gather around. It is really amazing! So, let me paint the picture.
The police vehicle was parked behind me. I have now only had one run-in with the police since I have been out on alexander platz, and that was around 2 weeks ago, so, I am feeling fairly free in my expression at this point. So, I bring the vibes of the music down and relax into the real emotions that I am experiencing at the moment. I had just come out of a meeting with my partner and it was full of emotion to say the least, so, I just want to sing about that. So I dive in.
Within the first minute of "Decisions" a song based on the power and challenge of making a clear decision, I had an crowd of nearly 50 people starting to gather around, which included a drunk man and a man connected to a wheelchair with a breathing devise in his nostrils. Now, mind you, they are my BEST audience, excluding the small children whom always understand what I am doing. So, I continue to sing to them and they increasingly become elated as I can feel the energy exchange between. But I haven't fully let go. The police are still inside and what will they do when they come out. Will they stop me? Will they get upset?
This is what they did. About 1 minute into my last song "Why the Worry" the police came out of the building and walked past me. Much to my surprise they gave me the thumbs up and then I really let go. I sang out every part of my soul for the now 75 + audience that had gathered. I screamed out "Why the worry, theres no time" and when I finally brought the song back down, opened my eyes, I looked out into a sea of faces that did not know whether to cry, laugh, jump up and down or just gather in a group hug. The drunk man was crying hysterically (the second man to cry in the last week) and the young man in the wheelchair practically jumped out of it for joy! The scattered confused applause lifted me out of my chair straight into the arms of the crying drunk whom I lavished with heart filled love and then moved on to the man in the wheelchair whom I showered with kisses and was met with an uproar of applause from the audience. The police behind me had trouble looking me in the eyes as they jumped in the vehicle and made their way off to the next possible trouble, for they had NONE here.
Each day out on these streets I locate a deeper part of me. A place that I can only find when I let the chaos of society subside and share my gift, my emotion and my courage to stand strong in the face of all adversity. I am grateful for each new days lessons and while I am here in Berlin, I will continue to give it up and receive the monatary benefits that these daily performances bring. Thank you God from bringing us here. It has been and continues to be quite a journey!
